Here in NYS we can't handel a pistol without a permit not even for training or can't even look at pistols at a gun store.
What is it like in other states? can you go to a gun range and rent a pistol, or do some CCW training.
More info on CHL permit.
Concealed Handgun License Requirements
• A legal resident of Texas
• 21 years of age and legally able to purchase a handgun under the Brady Bill
• Have not been convicted of a felony in any state
• Have NO convictions of Class A or B misdemeanors in the last 5 years
• Are NOT subject to a restraining or protective order
• Are NOT delinquent in the payment of taxes, child support or any other fees levied and collected by the State
• Are NOT chemically dependent or of unsound mind.
